It has been a very long time since I have written anything. I have had no compulsion to write. Even today I do not have much of one except to tell you I am finally in a place. Not quite yet wonderful, not quite yet exciting, nothing except a place where life is finally becoming tolerable. Since you have disconnected because I did not matter, I have reconnected with others who think I do. It makes all the difference. Like last night. I was reorganizing my photos and found many archived pictures of our adventures. I deleted every single one without hesitation. I now have better adventures to cherish and archive. Adventures much more meaningful than ours ever were because I mean something to them- and always will- no matter what.
I hope you will treat your doppelgänger like she matters. Yes, I know- and not by choice. But so what. So as long as you are happy. Me? What do you care?